The Shaman Considers His Craft


Did I say footprints?
Did I say each puddle reflects a world? I use to see distinction in things other people instinctively ignore.
The bird in the bush could sing his door wide, and with windows
there to open
the wealth of those deeper places could catch the thrush's warble and gl itter white fire.
But then I got to naming things, and relating one thing to another.
The tracks for instance, no longer just a trail to follow, an extension or some place where the mystery of places might echo a brittle birth.
I had to know that beauty--decode it,
like a song. The thrush's song, the broken tracks, the I ittle brown splotch that is the bird upon
it's branch, it had to be a destiny, a metaphysic or sympathy breaking down haunted tomes ...
levels of Justice and fate.

I had to know what made the haunted real,
to know how these doors open, one into another so that bird sails freely
and his fire pierces through the bush, the puddles that are sl fck as sl iding glass,
and know much more than being carried by a song (his song from his landscape) into a scape not mine and not his.
And at that point, that beauty that became so brittle as I went downward
(through the landscape his beauty built into the scape not mfne and not his)
I missed the whole haunted meaning of fire and magic both.
And I was left there, as if I stood before a maze of bushes all grown with doors.


Kristen said...

Yes-- I recognize the need to categorize and contextualize an experience until the experience itself is somehow buried by the categories. The poem captures that error, and the feeling of loss that accompanies it. Very moving.

believer333 said...

I also see distinction in things others ignore. It enlarge life for me.
Love the way he speaks from a deep emotion.